Wow. What a period of change I am going through. It's actually quite amazing for somebody like me. I'm so used to just looking at everything negatively or with a bleak outlook. But since a couple of weeks ago, through my own hard work, I feel so much different.
I couldn't really post yesterday as I had my daughter with me, and a nice time we had too.
Today I'm feeling OK and only a little anxious about one thing in particular, but that's nothing I can't handle and besides, it's more a 'healthy' anxious or what most people would call 'normal'.
Today I'm going to write about another subject that helps to keep my depression at bay and it may even turn some of you away, as it's often a boring subject for most people and reserved for 'geeks'. But I'd like you to stay and read if you can, you may learn something...
I hope you're all feeling well and happy today; hey it's the weekend!
Usual thing first. Up early again at 05:30 and feeling happy. Had a great night last night at friends and had a couple of drinks and dinner. Thanks guys! Today we are all going mountain biking on one of our local trails, the Marin in Betws y Coed. So that should be fun (and very wet!). I'll look forward to picking my daughter up for her stay over later on :)
So, that kinda links me to what I wanted to talk about today.
Before I go on (literally!) I just want to say a big thank you for the huge response I have had from this. Not just the well wishes on my Facebook page, but also from the number of hits on the blog I have had; 209 yesterday alone! I am astounded with the response. This was never an exercise in 'hey, look at me give me attention'; like I've said primarily it's to help me and to educate others. So, thank you it means a lot to me!
Hello again. I've noticed that I've had quite a few hits on both posts so far, so I'm feeling quietly confident that people are interested in what I have to say.
Firstly, I woke up feeling a little anxious today, but I think that was because my wife had gone back to work so I was alone in the house. But, I resisted the urge to take some diazepam and took the dog out for a good stick throw! I then came home and wrote a list of objectives for the day.
Before I begin with writing my (hopefully) daily posts, I want to open my heart out to you, whoever you are and where ever you may be in the world. I'm writing this to help me and to add my little bit of awareness to the world.
I intend to make this as frank as possible in a world that has only recently recognised depression as a serious, and debilitating illness. Some things I talk about may be hard for you to stomach; that is my intention. But that said, I don't intend on making the diary depressing reading, only to educate you and to build your awareness. You may be a sufferer yourself or you may know someone who does, and want to hear it from another; we all suffer differently. Either way, I hope I can show you a thing or two. If you're not interested, then just leave. Simple. It's time that the stigma of having a mental illness was eradicated.